more importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 00:29:52 GMT

ok, so i went to bed last night naked ( i sometimes sleep that way) and i woke up with shorts on, inside out. its really weird cause i have no idea how they got on me or anything. im certain that i did not wake up and put them on. there's no way to explain it. kind of like the one time a pair of pants that were in the recliner in my room were wet. nothing else was, just this pair of sweat pants. no clue.

so i took the management position at work. $8.50 an hour. and thank god, cause that car that i bought a little over a month ago broke down and its going to cost around $1000 to fix. the day after it broke down there was an ad in the Kentucky Kernal (the campus newspaper) for male dancers. it pays $125 an hour. i took it as a sign.

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 03:49:19 GMT

two updates in two days, you know something is up.

today at work i found out that my manager is quitting at the end of this month. its a pretty big deal cause there are only 4 of us that work that, and we all get along really well (even if two of the four are over the age of 70, my manager is 29). so we were talking about finding a new manager, and someone in the company mentioned me doing it. i thought about it, and im going to talk to my supervisor on wednesday about it. its pretty much mine if i want it. thats how much they love me. i just have negotiate out the pay, thats will be the clincher. its going to be at least a $1.00 raise, but im going to try for more. it can never hurt to try, right?

all ill have to do is make the schedule and deal with customers when there is problem with their clothes and communicate between them and the people over at the plant where they do all the cleaning. it really shouldnt be that hard. oh, and i would have to hire someone new to work in the store with us. that should be pretty fun. and then go to managers meetings once a month for two hours and get paid for that as well. so its really not that bad a gig. ill be working more hours, but i make the schedule and the latest that we're open is 7.

so im pretty excited about that, i just have to think about it, make sure that thats what i really want to do and everything. but a little more responsibility never hurt.

anyone looking for a job? pays: $7.25 for starters, $100 bonus after 90 days. work: a little, but lots of studying time and watching tv. its insanely easy.

good way to end the summer

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 03:55:41 GMT

this weekend has been pretty crazy, but really good. ive been gettin really bored with everything lately, this was a good break and always good to get out and socialize.

on thurs, i called my friend to see what she was up to, and she said that her and this other girl kelly (we call her crazy/vodka kelly, she drinks the shit like its water, and shes always drunk) were going to a party down on campus with a guy i know. so i went along, ended up being pretty fun even though i was the DD. but they were all crazy drunk, so it at least made it entertaining. we went back to kellys house, and lemme just say, naked drunk people running around/ taking showers, it was pretty damn insane.

then on friday, we went to ashleys house, had over tons of people and just drank. just a low key night of drinking, minus a little drama, but whats a night without my friends without drama? tab, who never used to drink at all, was bonging beers like a champ, so was ashley.

last night we went to a random friend of kellys house out in nicholasville. i wasnt going to drink, but then i bought an 18 pack and we started bongin again. it was all pretty crazy, some strippers were there, you know- the usual. lol. (the apparent strippers were friends of this guys, and we dont know if they were really women of the pole or not) we get back to tab and ashleys place at like 3, which im surprised we made it back at all. pics of half naked people in the backseat were taken, im just glad we didnt get pulled over and have to explain that one. i crashed in ashleys bed, she was over at her bf's. woke up at 7 still drunk and drove home, crashed till 12. then i rolled out of bed and layed by the pool all day with some friends, the ones that i had spent the whole weekend with. it was a great time, first time i have done that in a long time, and it was a good thing to do when youre workin off a hangover. we had tons of fun, even sober...well kellys sobriety was questionable.

all in all, it was a great weekend with excessive drinking, great funny friends, and plenty of sex and bruises (no sex for me, trust me).

and now classes start on wednesday. damn.

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 02:08:13 GMT

if i hadnt wrecked my car and still had $5000 plus in my bank account, i would move out. at the drop of a hat. my house is driving me nuts. i know that if i thought through it and about the money and all, i wouldnt move out actually, but its always a nice thought. my sister is driving me nuts. the one with the kid. i havent talked to my other sister who moved to florida a few months ago. i wouldnt even know if she was still alive or got caught in some hurricane passing through.

and about the money, its always about the money. i cant save it worth shit. something always comes up. bills, parking permit, computer adapter, books. oh fuck, books. well over $500 is what it should cost me this semester. one book alone is $190. people are like "thats normal" no, not for me. i cant pay that, i dont have the money to nor would i be willing to do that. im beginning to see how much of a rip off college is. its all a money making racket. what the fuck could possibly make a book cost $190? nothing. they are just charging students that because they know they can get away with it.

jesus christ, i need to just chill. im just so charged right now. and not in the hyper sense, im charged in the sense that i hate everything. my job and the assholes that come in there are makin me nuts, im gonna go postal on this one guy who acted like an asshole to the 70-something year old grandma i work with. he apologized and then proceeded to say he was going to the car to get his wallet to pay for the cleaning (that he convieniently took with him) and never came back. thanks for acting like an asshole, apologizing and doing it again. next time he comes in, im holding his clothes that he still has there till he pays everything he owes, and then im going to tell him to take his business somewhere else, we will no longer do business with him.

im reading a book called "lies and the lyingn liars who tell them. a fair and balanced look at the right." its really quite interesting. it just makes me realize how fucked up this nation is. i wanna move to europe. particularly england or amsterdam. which reminds me...

last night i was at a friends house, and this english guy walks in carrying this huge ass hookah a la alice in wonderland style. it was hilarious. we then proceeded to smoke fruit cocktail tobacco out of it. only tobacco, i swear.

im also reading a book entitled "what should i do with my life." its a collection of stories/interviews with people who made drastic and radical changes in thier lives to be happy and do what they have always wanted. im so unhappy with my life right now. i just feel like something big needs to happen to shake things up. wake me up from the day in and day out monotony my life has become.

im off the spend more money on more things im forced to buy.

where to begin...

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 01:04:43 GMT

hmmmm. disregard the last post from almost two months ago. i dont know whats goin on with that. at the moment it seems like nothing, silly me for thinking it would go anywhere.

besides that, not a whole lot is goin on. my german host bro and a friend came over a few weeks ago for 3 weeks, it was an...alright time. i still have mixed emotions about them being here. lets just say i like germans a lot more in their own environment. it was a little stressful having them here and feeling like i had to entertain them 24/7. but while they were here i wrecked and totaled my car. thankfully my friend who was with me at the time and i were alright. it wasnt that bad of a wreck, just hit in a few places that bent the frame and so on and so on. but i got a new car, a 99 accord. thankfully i had saved up money the past year and was able to pay cash for it, so at least i dont have a car payment and what not. and now i feel broke. im not, far from it, but its still unnerving to have so much money and then go to so little in a day.

so now im just sitting around, working (i quit my job at the cleaners, and then ended up going back. i realized it was too good of a job during the school year. i might get a job bartending when i hit 21 in december) pretty much just waiting for classes to start. im only takin 15 hours, and one class is online. i dont have any classes on tues or thurs, thats kick ass. makes the week go by so much faster. im going to try and declare my major by december, thats when ill be done with my gen ed classes. so we'll see. and the goal is to go to chicago next year for a year of school. UK has a thing called national student exchange, its a lot cheaper than international exchanges (ok, so it'll be free for me) and ive already done the international thing. as much as i would love to go away somewhere else, it just isnt going to happen. so hopefully ill be living in chicago for a year. i said for a year that i was going to go to california, CSULA, to be exact, but that just seems so impractical. its so far away and so expensive to live there. i just think i would enjoy chicago more so than LA. and hey, chicago has beaches too! just not quite as warm... so thats the plan, we'll see if it pans out.

im ready for school to start, it just feels like im sitting around waiting for it, as dorky as that sounds. but after being off for 3 months, i think im sufficiently rested. lord knows that 3 weeks into the semester ill be wanting time off again. oh well. my goals for this semester is a 4.0, which i think i can do with the classes im taking (anatomy, physiology, chemisty, honors 201, dress and culture online) and to get more involved and make new friends. i didnt do anything to get involved last semester, and i think im needing that. plus i still hang out with people from high school (with some new people mixed in there that i just met this past year) but i just feel like i need to branch out. (ok, so only a very few people from high school, and we didnt even hang out then) but anywho, those are the goals.

fuck, i want to go out and do something.

unreal...

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 06:28:41 GMT

have you ever been with someone you didnt feel you deserved? its a great feeling and an unnerving one all at once. i love everything about it, but then i dont want to do anything to screw it up. but what am i talking about, its only been two days....

Sat, 07 May 2005 05:41:44 GMT

i never update this thing anymore. i never have the time/motivation, but i do have that time and motivation to read everyone elses LJ. im half drunk (only half cause last night i was trashed). this summer is going to consist of work, beer (no more liquor), partying, friends and driving to california. a few friends and i are goin out there for about a month, should kick ass.

grades for this semester- 4 A's and a B. not too shabby. and thank god since i have to keep atleast a 3.3 for my scholarship, i have a 3.6 now. good thing, cause otherwise i wouldnt be going to school. im out. later.

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 04:02:40 GMT

every time i get on here to update i just lose interest. condensed version- we hate the german living with us. went to the taste of chaos tour, it freakin kicked ass. went on spring break with 6 friends, stayed at a nice ass house in jacksonville, fla. took trips to daytona and ft. lauderdale. drunk everyday. loved everyday. school and work till the end of april, and then its two jobs for two months, then quitting both when my host bro adn friend from germany come for 3 weeks. and then driving out to california with a friend/some friends for a month of bumming around there.

hows that for an update. my life in a few lines.

aint it grand

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 04:42:35 GMT

i love it how the little things make me happy. i just borrowed a bunch of cds from a friend, and it just makes me so ecstatic. they are a bunch that i have wanted forever, but just wouldnt buy. they include-
the used
the postal service
the starting line
something corporate
pedro the lion (i havent heard it yet, but she said its great)
snow patrol
the cure-the newest one

im listening to something corporate right now, first time i have heard more than a few songs of theirs, and i have to say i like it.

and i just bought a cd online today, a small indie band that i found on purevolume.com. they are called "the academy is..." good stuff if you like indie rock and all, and great website to find it all.

and i just got done watching "Ray" it was an awesome movie, and i have a newfound respect for Jamie Foxx, thats for damn sure.

my weekend plans are- go to the gym tomorrow morn, do homework, go out to dinner with a friend and then the play at my old high school. thats about it. but we'll see.

the tongue is doin fine, im going tomorrow to buy a new bar to put in, a shorter one. im already thinking about the next one im goin to get this summer, when i dont have swimming class anymore....what should it be? a tat is on the way too.

the german is here, he's alright, a little different, but not terrible. so yea, it keeps things exciting around here i guess.

well, thats all. thats probably the most comprehensive update in a long time. till next time!

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 01:16:10 GMT

i done did it now. something that i have been wanting to do for years, especially since germany-- i got my tongue pierced. it wasnt all that bad really. the clamps are what hurt the most. i went and finally got it done cause my friend elne (el-nay) wanted to get it done for her 21st bday. i dont have to work again till monday, and i was worried about the swelling, so we went last night after i got off. i got it put as far back as i could, to minimize swelling and notice-ability. so its all good. i still havent told my parents, im still debating it. figured it would be best, and tell em "you havent noticed it the whole day, so you cant say anything about it being so tacky." so yea, im excited about it. other than that, not much goin on. i have a german moving in with me on wed, till the end of june. should be interesting, and im actually looking forward to it, which is surprising. we're going to do all kinds of stuff, including going to the taste of chaos tour with the Used, My Chemical Romance, Senses Fail and others. im so excited about that. and we're going to the a UK basketball game.

thats all, im tired of writing, no wonder i dont update this thing ever.

update

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 00:58:47 GMT

havent written on here in a while. i had my birthday, im now 20. went back to school after changing my schedule about 4 times. i now only have one night class on tues and thur, and then 4 on mwf, one of them is swimming which im excited about. i went to it for the first time today and it kicked my ass. we just do laps for about 45 min. i did 650 meters, so 26 laps. which aint bad for my first day. but im excited about it cause its the best workout i have had in a long time, probably since football in germany. im gonna get the swimmers bod, woo hoo. shouldnt take too damn long with three times a week! other than that im taking honors 102 which is writing intensive, german reading and writing, and econ- my prof is awesome, so that makes it better. the night class is clac, im retaking it in a smaller class to get a better grade than a D and boost my GPA so i dont lose my scholarship, cause if i did then i probably wouldnt go to school any more, and thats no good.

but yea, thats about it. there is a german coming to stay with my family and me in a few weeks. hes gonna be here for about 4 months. should be interesting.

alright, thats it. exciting, i know.

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 02:39:45 GMT

i turn 20 in one week, thats so fricken weird. i cant believe it, i was talking with friends about it last night, and i reckon that im going to be an adult. insanity.

i just changed my nipple ring. ive had it for about 7 weeks or so, and i just went from the barbell to a ring. its gotta be one of my fav piercings so far, but i already want another one. we'll have to see... :)

i went to the mall again tonight and got a little present for my nephew, and i bought a cookbook for my sister to give to my parents since she got them a wok. i cant believe that christmas is on saturday. its crazy, cause i know exactly what i was doing this time of the year last year. my, how times flies.

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 22:13:04 GMT

i just got all my christmas shopping done in one store in about an hour. i went to target, got my mom a toaster oven cause she said she needed a new one, dad one of those digital tape measures that places your pics and stuff on walls so they are center, and i got my sister the celine dion cd about babies and mothers because my dad recommended it. yes, i bought a celine cd.

other than that nothing going on, i assume that im going to start my projects for break. i already started the da vinci code, im on page 70 and friggin love it. im going to go buy some canvases and do some art for my walls. then its makin a headboard for the bed and then painting my bathroom i guess.

it feels so weird not really havin stuff to do. i keep on feeling like i have to get up and do something so i dont get behind on school work. but its great not having any responsibility right now, except for a few hours of work in the afternoon. but i do wish that i could work more since im off school, i have this thing with money, even though i have more than most people my age do saved up, i still get this uneasy feelin like i have to save up more. its weird.

last night was great, i had a blast. it was so nice. ;) dont worry about anything.

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 02:19:44 GMT

im just so worn out, both from school and family. stayed up till 2 last night studyin, well studying and talking online to someone! got up this morning at 7 to study, but it paid off, i think i aced the test this morn. then i got home from, got lunch for my mom and me, gave my nephew a bath, laid down 20 min, went to work and studied there, came home and made dinner, emptied the dishwasher, did laundry, helped my mom get ready for work, fed my nephew while my sister went out to dinner with her firend, and now im sitting here. i still have to finish the laundry, clean up the kitchen, take out the garbage and then study for the final that i have at 8 in the morning. after that i plan on going to the gym. im tired as shit now and kinda in a bad mood. stressed from school and work. but its almost over with finals and everything. i failed my math final.

whats worse- that i failed my final or that i just dont care? yea, i got one question out of 12 right. fuck it all to hell.

dont fucking fuck with me fucking piece of shit AOL

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 05:12:14 GMT

lets try this one more goddamned time. i tried to update this and of course aol had to fuck up AGAIN. i hate it, and i hate my laptop, i dont give a fuck if it was free- more incentive to break it.

alright, so since i typed a bunch and it got erased, lets do it the short, summed up version-

im wired on coffe, staying up to study for finals. dont have one tomorrow cuase im exempt from german. but i have two on tues and then one on thur and fri, all in the mornings.
im going to spend a lot of time at the gym this break, both to get away from my family and because i will have lots of time to do that. i used to be 218 lbs in high school, im down to 179 as of tonight, and i plan on getting down to 160something, in case you cared.
over break i will also be painting my bathroom, making a headboard for my bed, making collages for germany pics, partying and reading the Da Vinci code.

im fueled up on coffe and pissed at my computer, im going to put more chilling music on and study calc. i know, not everyone can lead a great life like i do, dont get too jealous now.

Sun, 05 Dec 2004 16:32:31 GMT

god damn im happy. finally in my life i have something that i have wanted for so long, well i have it so far, and we'll see what comes of it. last night was a good night. :D

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 05:05:18 GMT

ebay= addiction. its my new one, on top of porn i guess, but thats not really new.

im currently bidding on like 4 items. this shit really is addictive. i just started it the other night, havent won anything yet, but then again, none of the auctions have ended yet.

thanksgiving was good, went up and saw the family. they all loved my new little nephew. i ate a lot, got tired, saw the family. same old. nothing eventful.

oh, have i mentioned before that i dont like family? well i dont like family. i do a few members, but overall... naaah.

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 19:30:53 GMT

so, as much as i didnt think i wanted it to happen, i think that there will be a german from my "hometown" in germany coming and staying with me for 6 months and going to my old high school. i wasnt sure if i wanted him to come, so much goin on at home with my sisters kid adn everything, plus school with me and working and everything. but after i told him it "wouldnt be possible for him to come" they sounded really bummed, so i called central office and found out some things and then emailed them back saying that i got things worked out and he can come now. yea, im a bastard. so i reckon he will come if we get all the paper work done and he can pay the $3117 that they require since they dont pay taxes here. we'll have to see...but i imagine that he will be coming at the end of next month.

other than that aint shit goin on. just have to survive the holidays with the family.

im so excited that im done with school for the week. im skipping a few classes tomorrow, but not missing anything important. already turned in work thats due tomorrow. i work today and friday for a cummulative 6 hours. go me.

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 02:33:00 GMT

god damnit, im in a weird mood lately.

things seem to be so...mundane. the same old shit...i want out again.

i have had a recent obsession with british rock.
placebo
muse
check those two bands out, they are freakin awesome. i made a placebo mix and i have been listenin to it non-stop. i need to check out some more muse, their video is on FUSE right now, im addicted to that channel.

i went today and started the frist step in guaging my ear. i got a 14 cbr put in it, going to go to a 4 at the biggest. so we'll see, i hear its addicting...as all piercings are. going to get a tattoo soon.

im so happy this semester is almost over. next week i have 2 days of class, and then 2 weeks after that and then its finals week. i really kinda hate my classes this semester, so im looking forward to the break and the change in schedule. during the winter break my plans include reading a book that i have been wanting to read, The Da Vinci Code. thats about it as far as the plans go. i would like to get another job for in the mornings during break, but i dont know if anyone would hire me for 3 weeks for just the mornings, who knows, i might have to look into that. im going to keep my present job, its just too good, and then get a new job in the summer so i can get more than the 17 hours a week that i get now.

whatever, im out. going to watch some tv, something i dont get to do during the week.

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 14:37:07 GMT

call me uncle adam.

my sister had her baby on wed morn at 8:55. i just havent had time to write about it. she was in labor for 31 hours... a looong time. i went to the hospital on wed morn from 3-5:30, then went home to get some sleep so i would actually pass a test that i had, went back to the hospital at 9:30 to see my new nephew and sister. my parents had stayed there the whole night with her. i got to hold him right after he was born, got blood on my hoodie and everything. his name is jacob ryan. so i have been trying to catch up on sleep the whole week. been busy with school, work and now family stuff. they finally came home from the hospital yesterday morning, so stuff is exciting around the house.

but yea, thats about all thats goin on here.

GGAAAAHHHHH

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 01:00:34 GMT

you ever get the feeling that youre just stuck somewhere, stuck and you want out. welcome to my life. i want something else in live, but dont ask me what, cause i couldnt tell you. somehow i think that moving off to california would solve it all...but would it? who the fuck knows.

i got my nipple pierced. the left one. LoVe it. more to come, for sure.

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 04:30:11 GMT

piercings piercings piercings...im going to get more. starting tomorrow. we dont have class so i figured i would do something productive...kind of. hopefully work wont mind.

going to play beer pong.PeAcE

things i have seen recently...

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 18:05:14 GMT

just a few things that i have seen recently due to the coming election that i thought were hilarious....

WARING FOR PEACE IS LIKE FUCKING FOR VIRGINITY. (thanks kate)

GO BRAZILIAN
NO BUSH- that was a bumper sticker in bright pink and lime green. i laughed in the middle of the parking lot.

tonight im renting movies (saved! and dawn of the dead) and staying home and watchin them, becasue i purposfully dont have anything to do, and im excited about that. then working and a costume party tomorrow night.

road trip

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 16:27:44 GMT

so i left on friday night right after work to take a road trip with a friend to go see another old friend of ours. we drove up to indianapolis and hung out friday night with a bunch of long-haired, dredded hippies. we hung out at the local community hippie house and did thing that hippies do (ill leave that to your imagination) and then we got up on sat and hung out adn then drove over to cincy for the concert

we went to the new found glory and green day concert (sugarcult opened for them) it was kickass. we had lots of fun and the bands were awesome. billy joel even put his hands down his pants and had an orgasm on stage. my night was complete.

now im back at home and workin on school stuff again. last week was hell with 4 midterms, but i made it out alive. i got papers back, A's on both of them, a 5 page and a 7 page one. i got a B on two midterms, one of them was math so im no longer failing that class, woo woo. i did well on the other midterms, german included.

im moving to cali at the end of this summer. i cant take it here any longer.

it's the end of the world as we know it...

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 21:27:56 GMT

i never thought i would say this, but i found a major that looks interesting! im going to look into Foreign Language and International Economics. its a major at UK that they made to fuse the two majors together, so kick ass! im going to be meeting with my advisor soon and just might be headed in the direction of that degree!.....lets hope i dont change my mind 3 times after its made up....